I have given myself time to begin the healing process, to think, to cry, to laugh {it feels good to laugh} I've have given myself time to get used to this 'new normal' and I have also discovered, with much relief, that the the old me is still there, deep within my core is the person I always was, yet I feel stronger and in a way I feel more passionate about the life I have been blessed with, perhaps that doesn't make sense, but right now I am happy and that happiness takes me right back to the moment I became a mother. I am comfortable with this new me and I am ready to head back to work, I'm actually really excited! I imagine my first day back (tomorrow) will be really emotional, it's a big step to take but I'm ready.